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| User: | deadnothingness (873447) [...you let your pretty world in...]
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| Name: | Ivy | |||||||||||||
| Website: | My writing journal - read it, whore | |||||||||||||
| Bio: | ----------  i'm ivy. i'm legal. i'm a libra. i smoke newports and weed. strictly green. i love writing. music is my life, as it is everyone elses, right? i have one sister, one brother. boys are pretty. so are girls. gay boys make my days better. and vinnie accardi is my hero. the end. ----------  ----------  So now I am rubbing my eyes because they are starting to bother me. I have been staring too long at the screen. But where was it when I first heard that sweet sound of humility? It came to my ears in the goddamn loveliest melody. How grateful I was then to be part of the mystery. To love and be loved. Let's just hope that is enough. ----------  Well, I talk too much to myself, and I turn my back on my faith. It's like glass when we break. I wish no one in my place. And I've seen you don't need their seeds when the cut goes in deep and I'm lost in sleep. I can't stay in this place. I can't stand when the room turns round on my fate. You give no guarantees. There's no promise I can keep. ----------  If you are reading this then this warning is for you. Every word you read of this worthless fine print is another second off your life. Don't you have other things to do? Is your life so empty that you honestly can't think of a better way to spend these moments? Or are you so impressed with authority that you give respect and credence to all who claim it? Do you read everything you're supposed to read? Do you think everything you're supposed to think? Buy what you're told you should want? Get out of your apartment. Meet a member of the ---------- oil slicked feathers, putrid stenched water-bed "mother nature's a whore," said the shotgun to the head. and it smelled like teen spirit angst driven insecure a country in puberty a country at war wet dreams cotton mouth blood thirsty oily hair fast cars movie stars earn 20 mill...to instill fear.  You're the closest thing to oblivion and my heart pounds in thoughts of you. A hitched breath escapes my lips and I swear it...I mean it...cross my heart...I'll always love you. ----------  Free from the torment of sin. All this I'm giving up. Much as the sun would decide to give in. Explode into orange. And hear all the voices sing praises with hymns. Mark the birth of a change. Free from the torment of sin. All this I'm giving up. ----------  But does anyone notice? But does anyone care? And if I had the guts to put this to your head...But does anything matter if you're already dead? And should I be shocked now by the last thing you said? Before I pull this trigger, your eyes vacant and stained...And in saying you loved me, made things harder at best. And these words changing nothing, as your body remains. And there's no room in this hell. There's no room in the next. But does anyone notice... there's a corpse in this bed? ----------
 ----------  Well, it's getting colder and you're getting distant. And I just keep thinking that I never meant it to be like this. To be like this. You know what comes next. So do I. You're begging for a way to gracefully bow out and say goodnight. It's worse than you think. On your way home, you should have known. You never listen to me. I'm only complaining to keep myself busy, sweetie. I'm only complaining to keep myself busy, sweetie. I can't say I blame you. But I wish that I could. I'm sick of writing every song about you. Don't call my name out your window, I'm leaving. ----------  And I've become content with this life that I lead. Where I drink too much and don't believe in much of anything. And I lie to myself and say it's for the best. We're moving forward, but holding ourselves back and we're waiting on something that will never come. ----------  Today I don't feel pretty. And I'm tired of trying to fit right in. Don't think they're just so great, 'cause being great must suck. We don't always see the bright side. We all need ego suicide. You hung my I.D today, but I have licked my wounds and carried on. ----------  I'm cold. I'm ugly. I'm always confused by everything. I can stare into a thousand eyes, but every smile hides a bold-faced lie. It itches, it seethes, it festers and breathes. My heros are dead, they died in my head. Thin out the heard, squeeze out the pain. Something inside me has opened up agian. Thoughts of me exemplified. All the little flaws I have denied. Forget today, forget whatever happened. Everyday I see a little more of overall deficiencies. I'm nothing short of being one complete catastrophe. ---------- Kurt Donald Cobain 1967 - 1994  And I forget just why I taste. Yeah, I guess it makes me smile. I found it hard, it was hard to find. Well, whatever. Nevermind. ---------- [[ credit for all my graphics, specially made for me, go to the community ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif){kind=small} eyekons - I thank each of you so very much. ]] | |||||||||||||
| Memories:: | 13 entries | |||||||||||||
| Interests: | 134: a perfect circle, adam lazzara, adam lazzara's hair, april margera, as i lay dying, bam margera, benji madden, bert mccracken, billy martin, blood, br& new, brand new, brand nizzle, brandnew, brandon margera, brandon novak, brian lane, bright eyes, bullet for my valentine, chad gray, chris fehn, chris pontius, cigarette's, conor oberst, corey taylor, craig jones, cutting, danny tamberelli, david desrosiers, degrassi, don vito, eddie reyes, eminem, emo, fan fiction, fangs, fight club, fight off your demons, flyleaf, frank iero, fred mascherino, from first to last, garrett tierney, gay porn, geoff rickly, gerard way, getting high, good charlotte, grey daze, hawthorne heights, jackass, james root, jarrod gorbel, jeffrey dahmer, jeremy renner, jess margera, jesse lacey, jno, joel madden, joey jordison, john nolan, johnny knoxville, jonathan davis, jt woodruff, kittie, korn, kurt cobain, lighters, linkin park, madden twins, marijuana, marshal mathers, matt pelissier, matt rubano, mick thomson, mikey way, mudvayne, my chemical romance, newports, nirvana, otep, paul gray, paul thompson, phil margera, poetry, porn, pot heads, potheads, pretty words, queer as folk, quinn allman, raab himself, ray toro, red bull, role playing, ryan dunn, sailor moon, saosin, self-mutilation, serial killers, shawn crahan, sid wilson, silverstein, slash, slim shady, slipknot, sonny moore, south park, spencer chamberlain, stephen king, steve-o, stone sour, straylight run, taking back sunday, tdagarim, ted bundy, the honorary title, the used, thursday, tim o'connor, titanic, tool, twincest, tyler durden, underoath, vampires, vin accardi, vincent accardi, vinnie accardi, viva la bam, waycest, weed, wildboyz, writing | |||||||||||||
| Schools: | None listed | |||||||||||||
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